ego sum tristis

I usually can’t stand reading people’s depressing blog posts where they talk about how much they hate life and how much they just wish to move on from their current situations. Well, now it’s my turn to contribute to the massive heap of posts that no one wishes to read.

I broke up with my girlfriend about two weeks ago. It has not been going well at all. I have not been sleeping well, I have not been eating well, and I have developed this cough that is not going away. Overall, life has just been going pretty poorly. I have been trying to keep up with classes, grades, homework, and finals, but it is so easy to lose motivation.

I recently read an article talking about first relationships. I think that it sums up my feelings perfectly. Often times, I just want to fight this feeling and never get into a relationship again, but I know that’s unrealistic, as I’ve always wanted to have someone by my side and my first relationship made me realize that. It was so wonderful.

Unfortunately, things happen. I will spare the details. While I sit and fight this feeling, she quickly fills the void that I left her, which hurts. It hurts more than anything else I have ever experienced. She so quickly threw me away and replaced me with someone else. It hurts.

I really don’t know where I was going with this post. I just wanted to express my feelings in an extremely vague and unspecific way. As the title suggests: I am sad. What else am I to do?

No matter how impossible it may seem, when you’re feeling down, you need to do something to show yourself that you’re worth more than the depression you’re putting yourself through.

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